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I remember a time when I believed that masturbation was a legitimate sexual release given to us by God himself. That as long as you don't lust while you do it, it is okay. This is taught in so many places, and I had believed it, because it felt good so why would I give it up? I figured it wouldn't be an issue not to lust while doing so. However, I learned very quickly, the hard way, this was a lie. It just enslaved me more to submitting to my flesh's screams and desires. It got so intense that whenever I had the urge, I immediately obeyed and spent some time alone.
My first question was, after falling once again in the dark of night, how do I break free of this curse? This very thing that promised satisfaction left me emptier than before. I felt emotionally and spiritually drained. This is where my pride was shattered and I asked Jesus to free me. I had the wrong motivations for freedom: I wanted to make myself look and feel good about myself. I kept trying to be free by my own strength, and I learned very quickly that my strength was feeble and was nothing compared to this beast. So I asked Jesus for help, and he led me to fellow siblings in Christ that taught me how to live free.
The first thing I had to do was see masturbation for what it was: sin. In particular, sin against my own body.
"Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body (1 Corinthians 6:18-20).
Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but sexually immoral people
Only when I saw the ugliness of my sin did I become serious about breaking free. I became willing to do anything to walk in freedom. I had to KNOW the truth that I was dead sin, and alive to Christ.
"How can we who died to sin still live in it? Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life (Romans 6:2-4).
It made sense once I thought about it. Can a dead person be affected any longer by this world? Nope. They are dead. Unresponsive. So, I took this truth, and made it mine. I RECKONED it to be so, that I was dead to my flesh's burning desires. No matter how fierce my testosterone raged, I was unresponsive and dead to it. Since I was alive in Christ, I YIELDED or surrendered my body to him. I learned how to truly glorify God in my body. I was in awe that once I surrendered myself to God and absorbed his Life the urges looked as how I was: weak and feeble. I was able to walk in freedom because of His strength and not my own.