True Repentance Demostrated: PART 9
So, Could I Ever Go Back?
Sure, if I ever choose to feed myself a diet of immoral thoughts and choices, my feelings and passions could very well return to past desires for a time. But you all would notice fairly quickly that something is wrong. My wife might notice first. My men’s group might notice next. But eventually, every one of you would notice.
However, the previous example about my choice—to not be alone with children—isn’t to toot my own horn or cause others to think I haven’t overcome past sins or temptations. The truth is that I no longer think, choose, or feel gay. I am not sexually attracted to either gender—male or female—of any age group.
Wait a second!—you say.
I hear your confusion. Let me see if I can clarify what God has done in my heart. God didn’t change my sexual identity from gay to straight. Instead, He changed my heart, to always pursue purity and faithfulness. Consequently, He has given me a single attraction, for my wife Hope—who never disappoints! NEVER!!! Check it out! The Bible confirms this resonating truth. ‘And hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us’ (Romans 5:5, ESV).
Sometimes, Hope asks—why do you love me? There’s only one reason to give. God has poured out His love for her into my heart. I can’t help but love Hope—she never disappoints! She loves me beyond the man I used to be, for the man I am today. No matter what may come through opinion, speculation, or even accusation Hope sees me in light of how the Gospel has transformed my life. She sees how I encounter and experience people, trial, and even the good times. She sees Jesus! It is my pray that she always does. So—